- Yesterday I posted a little bit about my Daddy. I was definitely blessed with an earthly Father after my biological one became absent. Even though I was adopted by Dad, there was still feelings of rejection present in my life. I think there was a part of me that always felt like I had been dismissed so easily. My biological Father gave me up pretty easily when it came down to it. A hidden part of me wondered what it was about myself that made me so easy to not love. It was good that Dad was there to love me and show me a truly perfect example of what a loving Father can be. Even though Dad did this, I still felt like I wasn’t up to par, so to speak. It probably sounds silly, but I didn’t feel like I fit in place within our family. When my parents had other children, I felt like they were Dad’s real children. Daddy never made me feel adopted, and neither did my Mother. They were excellent at making me feel special and just as much a part of things as the other children. They didn’t make me feel out of place. I did that to myself.
- When I was in my early twenties I discovered a solid truth that would change my perspective on my life and begin a healing process in my heart. I had been in church throughout my childhood, but I had never learned the concept of the Father Heart of God. When I first learned of this aspect of God, it was like the floodgates opened, and an enormous wave of love and acceptance was poured into my life. I was able to grab hold of a love so powerful, unconditional, and true, that it was able to permeate every cell of my being. Not only did this love make me feel special, beautiful, and adored, it was a relationship that healed my hurts. I was adopted a 2nd time, into a Holy family. My earthly Father did such a wonderful job of loving me, but I craved that relationship with my Heavenly Father. That relationship was able to break the strongholds of rejection, and mend my cracked heart.
- Does that mean that when I realized God was my Father, I was able to erase every hurt and jump around feeling like the prettiest girl at the ball? No. See, God does such a thorough job of untangling the mess of a broken life, that it doesn’t happen immediately. Yes, you will feel different right away. When you experience the touch of His Holy Spirit and its healing in your life, you’ll feel a change right away, but you won’t be completely transformed. For one, I think we humans hold onto stuff for a while. It’s hard for Him to work when we insist on holding on to past hurts. Also, it’s not just believing in the theology that He’s our Father in Heaven. It’s about accepting that you can have that very real relationship, and surrendering your life to the perfect will of your Dad. He’s still working in me. As I give Him more of my life, my pain, and my fears, He is able to untangle another jumble of the mess I made of things. My Heavenly Father is always there ready to hold His little girl and listen to her concerns. His arms are strong, and His lap is open. They can hold me when I’m scared and keep me safe from the lies that try to creep into my life. I can cry out Abba Father and rest in His arms.
That is all 🙂
Anna says
Ok. My favorite again. Can I have 2 favorites?
Brie says
Haha. Thanks. You betcha!