When the husband and I first got married five years ago we were weighted down by a lot of our own personal baggage. Despite the heavy burdens we collectively lugged I felt like he was the one for me. Heck, I had known it from the first day we met eighteen years ago.
Back then a nineteen year old man stood on stage with his long, dark hair half-covering his pale face while he strummed his guitar, and my adolescent heart swooned. It swooned.
While I knew he would be my husband I’m quite certain I had no idea what our future together would hold, and I certainly had no idea it would one day be like it is today. As it stands I don’t know if my marriage can make it like this. I mean, I can’t imagine another year like the one we just had.
Last night, or this morning, whichever you want to call it when the clock struck twelve, I felt obliged to share a kiss with my spouse. Isn’t that what you’re supposed to do?
Our two young daughters had passed out prior to midnight on this New Year’s Eve, and the quiet atmosphere without their chatter wasn’t lost on me. Adult laughter from the gathering we attended filled the void of silence between us, and I watched him from the corner of my eye as the time of the past year ticked away.
No words really needed to be spoken as he knew what was on my mind, and as midnight came he turned to me swiftly, and he took my face in his hand, turning my lips towards his. We kissed, and I felt another year sealed.
As we parted from our brief encounter our eyes met, and I could glimpse the twinkle in his dark eyes. I really couldn’t see how it could go on like this. How could it?
Not even when we met as teenagers, or years later when we wed could I have imagined how our life would turn out. I didn’t know that when God put us together that He would turn us upside-down and inside-out. I didn’t foresee the struggles we would endure, or the changes we would make.
As I looked into my husband’s eyes, the same eyes that were once covered by long, dark hair, I couldn’t imagine how it could keep going like this. Surely my heart would explode!
Each year since we had married had gotten better. Each year I grew to love him more, and each year my heart swelled with happiness over the life we had together. Every year I couldn’t see how it could get any better, but somehow each year it did.
A shared kiss, a shared life. Another year gone, and another year ahead. Even though I couldn’t imagine life being any grander than it was at that moment, I was eager to give it another shot. I didn’t know what the next year would bring, but I knew with my husband by my side, and our open hearts for what God had in store, that the coming months would far exceed any expectations our human minds had conceived.
AJ Wilbanks says
Pretty cool Brie!! I read ur blogs from time to time and they always make me smile and feel uplifted!!!
Keep on keeping on!!!!
brieann.rn@gmail.com says
Thanks so much AJ! I appreciate your comment.