I was driving home from work last night when a thought occurred to me. I suppose that happens when you’re driving down a palm-tree-lined street, still getting used to new road signs, and realize, ‘yep, I really live here.’ Such is the life, I guess, of those led by the Spirit. You wonder, “how did I get here,” and you marvel at how far you’ve come. How did life shift so grandly, and how did it change so much? It feels good. Peace like a river.
When I told my husband last summer, “I feel like God told me we should move to Fort Myers,” his response may have been surprising to some.
Without hesitation he replied, “ok. Sounds good.”
And that was that. I started looking for another job, despite the fact that I loved the one I had. I started looking for a new place to live. I started looking at health insurance options, since I’d be losing ours with a job change, and I withdrew from college. I wouldn’t have the time to pursue an advanced degree like I planned. But mostly, I just prayed.
“Lord, lead us. Make the way.”
Looking back, I don’t think I can simplify my spouse’s response as just trusting me. I mean, I know he trusts my ability to hear from the Holy Spirit, but placing his calm, collected demeanor to it all in one tiny box would truly negate the point of how we live life like we do. In the same line of thinking, I cannot place my own decision to move forward so surely on the confidence in my ability to “hear God’s voice.” Indeed, stepping out in faith has little to do with self, and so much more to do with Jesus.
You see, while my husband trusted my discernment, more so he trusted our Savior. And while I believed in my spiritual ears to hear from the Lord, I would be a crumbling mess if that was all I had to rest on. My ability would have been sinking sand, and my spouse’s faith in me would have been a mudslide. But Jesus? Well, that we could count on solidly.
When I told my husband I felt led to uproot our happy existence in the city and community we had come to love, his response was based on trust in Christ, not me. When I realized I was going to step out with what God whispered to my heart as I sat alone with Him on a balcony at the beach, it felt kinda crazy. I mean, was I really about to suggest we change everything based on a still, quiet voice, that might not even be God?! Yet, I felt peace. Something that should have seemed crazy and unconventional to me, felt like the best decision there was. So, I took that first step. I knew I didn’t take it alone.
The point is, it wasn’t me that my husband so much trusted, but rather God’s plan for us. Being the chill, relaxed dude he is, he knew that if this wasn’t God’s will, then it wouldn’t work out. A new job wouldn’t come, or living arrangements would fall through. Financial constraints would arise, or roadblocks would occur. Where God leads, He makes a way. So, as we began to make small steps of faith, the Lord opened big doors. Jobs fell in my lap, and blessings poured out into our hands. No roadblocks, just paved roadways.
I’ve discovered over the past few years that following the Lord isn’t as hard as I assumed. It’s all about being still, listening, and then walking. It’s about waiting, and then stepping through the door that opens. It’s not about what I think I should do for God, but rather what He designs to happen. I don’t have to try so hard to live for Him; I just have to live my life in Him. Abiding in His presence. It’s about understanding that despite my best intentions, I’m likely going to mess things up. But more importantly, despite my missteps, the Lord will straighten my path. I’ve discovered that in this life I don’t have to always know where it’s going, as long as I understand who leads me. I cannot get lost when I’ve already been found.
linda McCormack says
great article. Forgive me if I am wrong but I thought you lived in an RV(is that what you call it..I am from Scotland). When I hear you talk about health insurance I am so grateful for our National Health Service free to all at the point of need. I hope everything works out for you and your family. xx
Thank you so much. Our health insurance in the US certainly needs an overhaul.
We did live in an RV for a few years up until December. We’re currently renters! We’ll see what the future holds!
Natalie Calk says
Inspiring post and trusting when we hear from God is important. Without that trust in His timing, we fail to react as he expects us to. God is leading me down what I thought would be a certain path but it is all in preparation for what I will impact in the future. God is an amazing God! Trust!
Lisa Pierce says
Hey Brie, I have really gotten behind on following your blog. Sorry about that. I didn’t know you had relocated and was now renting (I read your reply’s to others also). I loved this article as I do all of them. I hope you’re all doing well and are dealing with less stress at work.
Please keep me in your prayers. I have been dealing with so many family deaths that my brain feels like mush. I can’t seem to focus and usually can’t concentrate long enough to read any articles.
Love you bunches, be safe girl!