I watch you sleeping. You don’t know it, but I do.
When I see your face I see myself, and I’m reminded how you landed in my life like a cataclysmic event, altering my everything, and changing me into the woman I needed to be. Sometimes I wonder, what was that life I led before you came?
When I see your face I’m reminded how much I want to be for you. You make me want to be the very best me. You make me want to be a better person, simply by being you.
When I see your face I see your Daddy. I see the very best part of me, and the most special parts of him, combined to create this dynamic package that has taken our life and hearts by storm. We’ll never be the same, and I’ve never been so glad.
When I see your face I’m reminded of all the ways I mess up. You see, I want to give you the best. I want to be the momma you deserve, but I know sometimes I fall completely flat in my efforts. Forgive me.
When I see your face my breath catches, and my heart feels like it stops. I wonder, what did I do to deserve this? I feel like the luckiest woman alive, if I were to believe in such a thing. As it stands I know I’m supremely blessed, and when I see your face I’m floored by just how much.
When I see your face I see my own fear.
Am I doing this right?!
When I see your face I see my dreams made into reality.
I was made for this.
When I see your face I see my own heart on display.
Have I ever loved this much?!
When I see your face I feel elated.
I must be doing something right.
When I see your face I feel like I have the strength of ten men.
No one will ever hurt you!
When I see your face I feel limitless.
I would do anything for you.
When I see your face I see my motivation.
I’m doing this for you.
When I see your face I feel God’s love made concrete.
Thank you for my babies, Lord.
When I see your face I feel unworthy.
I don’t deserve such perfection.
When I see your face I feel grateful.
Thank you Lord for trusting me to be their mother.
When I see your face I see everything I’ve ever wanted to see, and I know I was made for just that moment. When I see your face I am complete, and I feel as if I could conquer the world.
When I see your face all the frustration I encounter melts away, and I am left with a marvelous awe. Any hardship I’ve come against seems trivial, any sacrifice I endure seems worth it, any pain I’ve felt seems distant, and any feelings of failure fade.
I can try and fail many things in this life, but when I see your face I feel like I’ve done well. All is see is you. Your face. And when I see that it’s all I need to see.